Rebender: The name I was given because I am so good at benders (not sure if its pride or shame I feel)  

We all know the saying “Sing like no one is listening, love like you've never been hurt, dance like no one is watching, and live like it is heaven on earth”. 

Well…I’m going to write like nobody is reading. 

I'm not going to bore you all with a sob story or “why I am the way I am” speech. I've just turned 38 and this is where I’m at right now. I'm single, never married, no kids, own a doggy daycare and my dog is my best mate. So yeah I'm a typical boring woman, or a “crazy dog lady” if you like. 

I'm starting this blog to just unload all of my feelings and experiences and share my attempt of getting sober for the first time in over 20 years. I will admit that today is a Sunday and I started drinking at about noon and decided to start my blog. So thank you spell check for all of your great work, I don’t think you're appreciated enough…I (along with a lot of other people) would not be here without you! So what is my goal here? Honestly….there are no goals to achieve from this. I just like to talk and I’m pretty sure my dog is sick of listening. My dog's name is Reggie, I feel like I should mention this as I'm pretty sure he will come up quite a bit. If anyone reads this and can relate or finds comfort in my words then that’s a bonus. I’m not going to lie (ever) but spell check needs a drunk version so it can just predict what I'm trying to say rather showing me all of my mistakes. Now that I think about it…that's kind of sounds like my drunken life. 

This is not a blog about someone who is sober. I am drunk in my undies at 3pm on a Sunday who only realised she’d gone out last night because of the stamp on her arm. This blog is about wanting and trying to get sober to see what that girl looks like and if I like her. And if I don’t like her…she can just go back to where she came from. Simple as that!